pondering regret
I became a Christian when I was 18. A choice I will never regret.
But there are some choices after that day that I sometimes do.
I wonder what University would have been like if I didn’t spend most of my time running a Christian Ministry. And then I wonder where I would be in life if I didn’t go to Seminary for another 3 years. And now I look back and think about a life that didn’t involve 5 years of starting and pastoring a church.
That is about 8 years of full-time commitment to Christian work and another chunk of free time devoted in University.
Sometimes I wonder if I wasted my time. Sometimes I regret it. Sometimes I wonder whether it was worth it.
Seems like a lot of time to devote to something that ultimately I think has almost entirely lost its purpose and in many cases, usefulness… not Christianity, but the work part.
