I have been thinking a lot lately about what you can really know, and what you think you can know. A good example of this is the Present and Future. You can know what you are doing, feeling, seeing at that moment, but you can’t predict what you will be doing, feeling, seeing in a moment in the future. You will be able to know at that moment, but just because you will know, doesn’t mean you do know what it will be.

When I reflect on this I realize how much time I have wasted thinking about the future or how I have not moved forward because of my fear of the future. How is that I have a complex that believes that “something I can’t know” will cause “this or that” in some time in the future? Where do we get this fear?

Sure, I understand that we have past experiences that cause us to believe that if that same situation arises again the same result will occur, and we fear that result. But, in its purest form, that thought is ridiculous.

You can’t honestly know that.

Anna has been spending a good amount of time purging our house and garage. In fact she has been purging regularly for years now. The truth that keeps her going is that any thing we are holding on to because we “think” we are going to “wear it,” “do it” or “get to it” is likely false, and if it becomes true we can always buy it or get it again later. It is not worth holding on to just to see if you true-self makes the decision to honour your false selfs ideals. Does that make sense?

I am starting to see how hoarding is a great example of living in the false-self. It is generally the case that people who hoard believe that they will have some need for the stuff that they hold onto. Of course then it ramps up from there.

For myself I am trying to adopt this true-behaviour from Anna. Am I going to use it now or do I use it/ wear it/ need it regularly. Otherwise my false-self is living in my garage, and I do not have time and space for things I am never going to do.