Tonight Andrea and Christine ran a prayer night out of our house in order to get our church praying more for our church and the community. I was hanging out with my buddy Alan at his church plant in Richmond prior to it, so i arrived home for the last hour of the prayer time and man was it refreshing.
It ended up only being the 3 of us, but it was great. They were listening to music and praying out loud and so at first I wondered if I should dive right in or avoid it. To be honest I am not one for extended prayer times, due to my ADD (not clinical, self diagnosed) but sitting with them, in the sounds of prayer and contemplative music was exhilarating. It wasn’t 5 minutes before I was in the moment, listening to God, praying out loud and really believing God was there with us listening and responding. I prayed for people I hadn’t prayed for in a while, and I was given a peace that I haven’t had in a really long time.
It is amazing how distracted I have become in my life. I have felt connected to God and close but tonight I felt like I tapped into something deeper, and all because I desired to try it, to sit in the silence and just be.
I think we have our idea of discipline mixed up. We think that if want to get closer to God we have build these disciplines into our life…prayer, reading the bible, serving our community, journaling etc. but I think it’s when we have become closer with God in a more organic way that we long for some disciplined intentional time in these areas. It is then that we can build these into our lives and in a sense “succeed.” It was as if I was ready for this, and it wasn’t forced time.
The three of us had a great chat after about how we need to keep praying together and believe that God wants to use this time and people will join us as they feel freed up to connect with God in this way. For someone like myself who avoids the “program” like the plague, I grew an appreciation for the “program” but perhaps in a new and fresh way. Programs (organized discipline) can be good, if it is outflow of what God has done in your life and manifests itself as a response to God.
I need to remember this night and I hope that I can continue to flesh out these ideas around discipline and not equate them with some church growth strategy or a way to make everyone more “mature” in Christ, but as a way to respond to what God has already been doing in my life and as a way to go deeper in that relationship because I was ready for it.